BEING A WIFE TO MY HUSBAND

What a blessing being married to Andy kits my lovely husband...what a joy it is and how it brings me so much peace that i often thank God for him.
A very down to earth calm man, very soft spoken, has such a sweet spirit, not easily angered, very forgiving ( keeps no record of wrongs), just a good example of what the bible says about love in 1corinthians 13. Such a loving man...very handsome yet not proud at all...how amazing this man is, he provides yet we both work, he supplies, helps me at home with house chores, cares for me, looks after me,remembers my birthday...lol, pays bills, caters for my hair bills...even pedicure and manicure... Am dependent on him for strength and courage, understands me when am down and talks me out of it, my prayer partner, my companion, Leader,  to mention but afew. Loving me when I least deserve being the person I understand I am;

Barbra, I, the one writing this is a very stubborn human being, loves herself to bits,likes to be independent (less of that now...hahahahaha),entitled to her opinion, very annoying, not perfect at all, easily angered, very playful and sometimes child- like and I tell you looking at me in the mirror... I can not put up with me, its hard to even think and imagine how my husband puts up with all that...we are so different in nature. "Oba Akikola'tya?" How does he even do it...?

Thinking about my husband reminds me of  how the bible likens man, the head of the family to Christ the head of the church and how he has loved us...which takes me to his character traits...very forgiving, loving and I get so amazed and marvel at how he has forgiven our past...present and future sins and how he loves us regardless of want we have done or do...he remembers not our transgressions as his bride...he has loved us with no exepections and he cares not if we are perfect or not because either way we can never be perfect but rather perfected in him. He provides for us even when we don't appreciate, he cares for us when we least deserve it. The love of Christ is tremendous, indescribable. Christ is LOVE.

THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD.


These days power is been on and off where we stay...dark nights most of the times and I have been experiencing hard time figuring out and putting together most of the things without proper lighting or no light at all. Having no light is the hardest time for me...its frustrating and unpleasant, I literary struggled to put together a meal for my husband and I as it took longer than necessary for me to put things together and as I sat to have my meal, my mind was thinking of many things and somehow it settled on thinking about people that do not know Christ, and I thanked Christ for the light.... John 8:12 says "... I am the light of the world.The person of follows me will never live in darkness..." I became very happy about the light( Christ) that I don't need to grope in the dark yet at the same time my heart crushed for these people who are still in the dark...in self condemnation... In hatred...in strife... Jealous and the like. I thought of Gen 1:1-3 ...then God said,"Let there be light!" And it brought so much understanding of light than I understood it before. Light is everything I need for me to properly do what I need to do...Jesus at the center providing us with this undying light is a such a privilege which is available to everyone that perceives and accepts it to be part of their lives.

Jesus being the light is also life ( John 1:4) verse 4 reads; In him there was LIfe. That life was light for the people of the world. In another verse he says he is the way, the truth and the life. Where there is light, there is life and truth and this light lights the way. I just love the fact that I know this truth and that there is light shining towards my way and that I can never stumble when am with him and that I have life through this wonderful light that has shone and lit my path and that there is no more darkness...strife, hatred, am Free from all that because my way is clearer than ever. Am in him and he is in me and I can move without any hardship. That is the light of the world. Receive it and you shall fall no more. The light shines in the darkness. And the darkness has not overpowered the light; there is so much power in having this light. It can never be overpowered... Not by anyone or anything. It is powerful walking in the light and am proud to be one of the people walking in this light as the righteousness of the lord and I would  love so badly  for  everyone  around  me to experience  this  beautiful  thing...the light of the world.

LIFE IN DEATH


She woke up one morning and her life was diminishing... Some how it was coming to an end, she knew why that was happening but she had decided not to let any one know what was taking place and why. She cried no more because it was as good as useless; she thought to herself, " why cry when am carrying a life in me?" And that brought her so much joy, joy that no one but her could understand, it was coming from within and her face lit up with a smile, a smile so warm and breath taking that her husband could not help but notice, it filled the room with some air of happiness as if supernatural, true something supernatural had happened, yes it had.

She was pregnant and the doctor's report was not good, not at all, she could not give birth and stay alive, she knew it, she had believed it but was not afraid of it, at least not now. And she wasn't afraid to do it; to give up her life for her only child, Bertha had not become pregnant in 20 years of their marriage and here comes the baby only to be informed of how she is unable to have her only child and still have a life of her own.

This only reminds me of such a beautiful love, one I can not fathom, one I cherish every time am given opportunity to be alive...when am troubled, when am sad, when the problems of this world overwhelm me. This only love I turn to, the love of my saviour; the love of my life, the way, the truth and the life; the love I never imagined and oh how sweet this love is! John 3:16 a scripture I have known from childhood, one I chose to embrace, how could one have such love? A love that scares me to think of, how I love to hold on to it. "... God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son..." The love that brought me life in death; death on the cross...it is so sweet...a love not afraid to bring life even in death. When he said " ...'it is finished.' With that he bowed his head and GAVE UP his spirit." All this for me...this love " breaks" my heart, my whole being...what a love, Life in death, yes it is and I have life because he died, died to make me whole.

THANK YOU JESUS!

                                           CRYING ( The Healing Power)

Now you may be wondering why I surely have to write about crying of all things but this is an interesting thing and has been and will still remain a big part of my life...grown or not.
Crying is the shedding of tears in response to an emotional state( diction) and  the act of crying has scientifically been defined as a complex secretomotor phenomenon characterized by the shedding of tears from lacrimal apparatus without any irritation of the ocular structure.

Its alright to cry, even my dad does sometimes, its healthy. Tears are your body's release valve for stress, sadness, grief, anxiety, and frustration; protectively they lubricate your eyes, remove irritants, reduce stress hormones and they  contain antibodies that fight pathogenic microbes.

In addition to the physical detoxification, emotional tears heal the heart. Crying makes us feel better, even when a problem persists, you don't want to hold tears back; please don't be afraid to cry to cry even if its in public... It's vulnerability yes but its no problem, cry baby, cry because nothing hurts more than holding the tears back , crying is the healing power.
Try to let go of the outmoded, untrue conceptions about crying. I love to cry, yes I do and I cry whenever I can and thank God our bodies have been embodied with this amazing capacity.

Oh how I love to CRY; CRY BABY CRY!

Just Do It

JUST DO IT


Looking for where to start from , wondering  whether it's worth it and probably if you are able to do, making all sorts of images in your mind and things do not seem to add up, asking the what, where, when, why, how and who questions. Well, yes it's overwhelming,  tiring and sometimes  you may lose hope.
Let's think of it this way,when you think of something  you want to do...a business, investment , name it, Do It, when it fails, try again and again and again  as its the only way you can know if you  can or cannot  do it.
Doing is sometimes  stressful especially at the beginning when there are no immediate results but either way,  do it

Doing is an auxiliary  verb...a verb is a doing word (action/ performance) in other words, DOING  simply  means doing  and nothing  else.
Doing doesn't  require you to be in the best or have a large sum of money or be in the best conditions  ever, if you wait for the storm to calm, you may never ever do what you desire to do...start where you are , life is not Utopian even Roses  have thorns.

Just so you know, follow your  heart  not people's  hearts or their dreams, theirs may seem big but to encourage  us, all dreams are big even when they are different...the biggest difference though is how we perceive,  how we go about  them and how much effort and time we are willing  to invest in them.
 You Have a Dream, Just do that Damn  thing and now is the time!

 Faceless evil

You may be reading this and have experienced it or going through it right now; its the most scary thing ever,the ugliest,thinking about it makes me sick to the bones... i hate everything about it, the mother of evil, the faceless monster, its unthinkable, undesirable, indescribable, it knows no fame, age, persons,has not limitations, it penetrates through the walls. 

FEAR , it attacks almost everyone, kills visions, distorts ministry, destroys plans and how it kills me to think it could engulf someone any minute! This i suffered for years, all sorts of fears encamped me and yes i lost control of my life somehow, i did. The fear of extinction , fear of mutilation , loss of autonomy, separation, Ego-death , fear of fear , Xenophobia , the fear of man's opinion and all the other emotions u can think of.

Fear is basically information just like any other emotions,  only understanding this brought me back to my senses, i learned to control it and now am free , free indeed!
Learning who i am in regards to how God my creator defines me resurrected  me and now am living life again, experiencing it in its fullness , i understood who my FATHER is and how he has loved me and that he gave us no spirit of fear. 
Now is my time to shine,shine like the stars above because the monster is dead, am now rooted in love...the only love of the one who created me, my redeemer, my shelter,Abba Father, and how great it feels to dwell under his shadow...no more fear, no more shame, no more, no more , no more, no no nothing can Imprison me any more!!!!!

I AM FREEEEE!!!!!!!!!