Waiting on the Lord

My husband and I have been married now close to 6 years and God has blessed us with a 4 year old boy which is completely amazing.

Before we had him, we got a miscarriage and it was tough to go through the pain both physical and emotional pain.

This is more like a testimony of what the Lord has done. I have been pregnant 5 times, but have one child and another due end of Feb. 

My motherhood has been one of pain, I have had 3 miscarriages which I believe thats the end of all that pain, I know it and I believe it. 

At the beginning of 2021 we prayed that God would bless us with another baby and so we became expectant but the beauty is that this time, I decided not to do in my power or take it upon myself to do it, I waited on the Lord in prayer and one day during the 5am zoom prayer, he confirmed that I would conceive, it was just an instinct but I held on to it and during that same time, I sent a small honor amount to Apostle Mosze which was very insignificant in my sight but I got convicted to send it anyway and he sent me a scripture on telegram saying there will be no more miscarriages and no more barrenness and I ran with the word. 

Then one day we were on a zoom call with Pastor Bee3(Pr Beatrice Byemanzi) and she mentioned they had been praying for a lady at their location who has had many miscarriages and she said she was expecting. After the call, I immediately sent her a WhatsApp message and she said she together with Pastor Jeremy would pray about it and they did. I am not so sure but I guess that same month I started feeling quite weak and I told my husband that I was feeling pregnant, we tested and it was positive. 

The joy birthed fear, fear birthed doubt and i had to fight the battle in my head but thankfuI i won and  held on to the word of  God and the word of the prophets and I can attest that the part of the bible that you believe is what works for you. Now I can testify!!!! Expectation is a breeding ground for miracles. 

As I write am 8 months pregnant and due end of next month and am super thankful for the man of God in our midst especially at such a time as this. All glory belongs to God. 

God has put cover for us in the men and women of God in our midst, we need to recognise them and the rewards are extraordinary. 

WHAT AM I MISSING?

WHAT AM I MISSING?
A blind spot is an area where  a person's view is obstructed or an area within your range of vision that you are unable to see.
That said, yesterday evening at our cohort meeting, we talked about the blind spot after listening to John C Maxwell's audio about the blind spot.  John said almost every one has a blind spot which is true, everyone does but because he didn't want someone emailing him saying they know some who doesn't, he said not everyone!  How Ironic! Being that they would be talking about someone else and not themselves. Anyway, am writing this because much as I knew I had weaknesses,it has never occurred to me that I have a blind spot.  Well now I know and as many may believe others but themselves have a blind spot, it dawned on me that I must be missing something.  Does everyone around me but me know my blind spot and I don't, questions lingered in my mind all night long. What could it be? What am I missing?

I was afraid I could have hurt someone or that maybe it makes me a bad leader.  Consolation was that I could ask someone that is interested in seeing me grow what mine is then I work on it and I begin by asking my husband.  I didn't know what that looked like in my life and leadership journey and better still as a wife and mother. Hmmm

I must admit, it's quite a challenge  and am even sure how to handle it if I knew it or even recover from it.
As John explained the LENSE principle and said that who we are determines how we see others,  I became damn founded.  We don't see others for who they are but rather through the lense of who are.
We see people in the context of ourselves because we see things as we are.  By this time, I was speechless  and I started giggling.
He then explained another principle as the MIRROR  principle. The first person we must examine is ourselves but do I/we? It's easy to see someone else's face.  Actually a few people can see their blind spots and am not one of those few, I need help!

People do not see themselves, the deception is we are always right considering our instincts or expertise,  knowledge in a certain field and the like. We often see ourselves by our in tensions and others by their actions( Jesus this is me)
so what am l missing?

How do I know my blind spot?
1) Ask people closest to you, people who believe  in you what it is like to be on the other side of you. We don't see ourselves so it's best to ask.  We see others out of context and see ourselves in context. It's amazingly human.
so as we evaluate ourselves,ask! Even Jesus did.
Disclaimer : Jesus though he was in flesh,  he was divine. He had no blind spot.  He is all knowing. Matthew 16:13-16
13 When Jesus came into the region of Caesarea Philippi, He asked his disciples,  saying, "who do men say that I, the son of man, am? "
14 So they said,  some say John the Baptist, some say Elijah... "
15

FEARLESS  SUMMIT.

Beginning  this month,  I was previldged to attend  fearless Summit at Mavuno Hill City,  Athi River which  was also an assignment  to fulfill as I attend Harvest  Institute an affiliate of Worship Harvest  Ministries.
My flight was at 7:50am so I should  have been at the airport preferably two hours  earlier  because  I needed a document to travel  with  my Son which I had not yet acquired. Fortunately I slept  over at a friend's house  who had connections at the airport  because  he had worked  there for  sometime.  He made some calls and I was reliably informed of the requirements which  required me to get pass  photos of the  baby

DRUNKENNESS

DRUNKENNESS
Reminscing on the past and as a little  child,  I didn't  know  why this certain  guy called  Gasirabo walked by our place  saying  things  I didn't  understand  and staggering as though  he had lost it . I remember  we used to give him  nicknames and one of the nicknames was Obangayina, I don't  even know  what it means but well he was in a different  state every time he visited  his friend, he was so in love with this  friend of his that he proposed and she said  "YES."  he didn't  have to visit  her anymore, he now was staying  with her. She is such  an influence that she hardly  says a word  but you  understand  what she means and  my neighbor had fallen  victim  of this  lady . She is called  Alcohol.  If you  have  ever  been drunk,  you  are in a better  position  to understand  what I mean.  Alcohol  empowers you and often it gives you a sense  that you  are in control of everything and everyone and yes,  you  can be only  in your  mind!

The Holy Spirit functions  more less the same Acts 2: 4, and they were all filled  with the Holy Spirit  and began  to speak  with  tongues,  as the spirit  gave them utterance.  The spirit  gives  you words not of your  own because it influences and Verse 13 says; Others mocking  said,  "They are full of new wine." why? Because  it also makes people talk especially  things they understand  not. Like this man in my childhood neighborhood, Gasirabo,  you may Want to visit  this new friend  who influences like Alcohol  and later marry her, she is a helper the Bible says and you  won't do much in your power  but in the spirits power.
Question  is, how do I get the Holy Spirit?
1) Acts 19 And it happened while  at Corinth that Paul, having  passed  through  the  upper  regions, came to Ephesus. and finding  some disciples 2 he said to them, "Did you  receive  the Holy Spirit when  you  believed?" so they said  to him,  we have not  so much  as heard whether  there  is a Holy Spirit. " and what does Paul  do? Verse 6. And  when  Paul  had laid hands  upon  them the Holy Spirit came upon  them, and they spoke with  tongues  and prophesied.  In other  words, you  can receive  the spirit  by the laying  on of hands.
2) Luke 11:13, "if then,  being  evil,  know  how to give good gifts to your  children,  how much  more will  your  Heavenly  Father  give  the Holy  Spirit  to those  who  ask Him!" brethren,  my dear  friends you  can ask father  for  the Holy Spirit,  he is more than  willing  to give us the Holy Spirit...how sweet!

Ask for  the Holy Spirit  and the Lord shall  give  it to you. So what  are you  drunk on... Is it the Holy Spirit or the other " friendly  one" The influence  almost  can be the same yet very  very  distinctive. Alcohol  wears out but the spirit  often stays long.

DISCIPLESHIP(Fruit doesn't Lie)

FRUIT  DOESN'T LIE.

From the time  I started  understanding and as far as I can remember, my mother  was and still  is a tailor or designer : call  it whatever  you want as far as am concerned,  she makes clothes...lol,  My siblings  and I have learned and adopted  so much  of her skills and traits, we often  talk  like her,  cook like she does,and now that am a mother,  I find myself  behaving like her and the most interesting  part is that we all love clothes  like her,  mum makes most of the clothes  she wears and like her, sometimes  we make our clothes, this my younger sister does for  a living too.  My brother  took a slightly  different  path, he does  décor  and I love bead work, sequins, motifs and the like and living  life with  her has so much  influenced  the way we live.  We have watched  her make patterns and all the magic she does while making  her customers' clothes which  range from  simple  dresses to wedding  gowns and yes I said gowns,  she made both my gowns and also made for  a friend  of mine ( Victory  Torach) and very many other  people.


Please  note,  mum has never  intentionally  purposed  to teach  us how to make clothes but we know  how to do it anyway.  I did bead work on  my gowns for my wedding,  the maids dresses and the flower  girls dresses not because  she taught  me how to but because  I saw her do it and I would love to say that most of life's lessons are learned  from  what we see for example   most  people  from  broken  families  detest marriage because  of what  they saw not because  of what they hear or heard and what  am I saying, DISCIPLESHIP;
Discipleship is life on life... Matthew 28:18-20
  18. And Jesus  came and spoke to them, saying, All authority  in heaven                   and on earth has been  given  to me.  19. Go ye therefore and make disciples  of all nations, baptizing  them in the name  of the father and of the son and of the Holy Spirit, 20. teaching  them to observe  all things that  I have commanded you;  and Lo,  I am with  you  always, even to the end  of the age.  Amen.  Jesus  commissioned his disciples( US) to go and make disciples  of all nations; to live like  Christ lived among  them,  to do what he did and more in the character  and competence  of him.  I guess  Jesus  was sure they  will do it not because  of what  he may have said to them  at the time  but because  they lived life with  him and had seen him do it,  he had discipled  them. So... How much  of what God is saying  are we obeying  because  discipleship, if it has to be in the character  and competence  of Christ  then we have to get/ receive from  him,  grow into it and that, that is what we give,  we will be Christ- like if we have to make disciples  of all nations...so,  how much  of him reflects  in us because  it's this fruit  that our disciples  will do or be.  An apple  doesn't  fall far from  its tree.  John  10:37... Verse  37." If I do not the works of my father, believe  me not."  by now and am hoping  that we especially me can confidently  say this not because  of our works but because  of what  he did and that it's not what we say lest it becomes  a Chinese  whisper but what we do...what we do matters, it speaks volumes...  And hence Christ - like disciples.

Remember,  FRUIT doesn't  lie.
 What is Jesus saying  to you?
What are  you  going  to do about  it?

MOTHERLAND

Beautiful!  Beautiful!  Beautiful!

She is so beautiful
She is a pearl unimaginable
Her rivers flow with fresh waters
Her hair  so green,  it covers  the mountains  high above  and the valleys below
The sound  of the birds arises her children  to the beautiful  mornings

She is so beautiful
Her offspring so colorful
Her daughters so loving
Her sons so courageous
Her young ones play  with so much  joy  and laughter

She is so beautiful
She is so daring
Entangled are her languages, yet musical they are

She is so beautiful
She is so vibrant like  the rays of the sun as it raises
She is so welcoming,  a home to all
She is my reason  to smile

She is so beautiful
She is so blessed
The peace  within  her heart is undeniable yet  indescribable
She is a home I hold dear

she is Uganda
She is a mother
She is my home


For God and my country!

ITS A BOY!

I think  I have Written so much  about  Myles  and I cannot  promise  that  am going  to stop on this blog,  so today  morning  I woke up, looked my boy smiling  at me and I was filled with lots of joy.
" Honey, Myles  is the best thing  ever and a gift from  God," I said to my husband and he asked me why I had said that out of the blue in the earliest  hours of the day, I smiled  and reminded  him that when we discovered  I was pregnant, we both hoped it would  be a girl and for  some reason  we thought  it was a girl, we looked  for  names and it was just an easy  thing  for  us to do and come across  the names.  The baby  grew on the inside  and the bump became rounder and rounder  so we decided  to do a scan to discover  the sex of the baby. We went to IMC, Jinja...proceeded to the scanning room and the radiographer was ready  to receive  us and he asked if we wanted  to know  the sex of the baby and as if under remote control, Andy and I replied  in Unison, " that's why we are here."
ITS A BOY!" Farouk  said with easy, little  did he know  that it's not the answer  we expected. We looked  at each  other  in shock and silence  filled  the room as emotions floated all over the place but we cried  not... I remember  I had assured  my mid wife when she said to me jokingly that's  a boy, I told  her I prayed  about  it and we both  prayed that we would  have a girl  first... And I started  quoting  scripture,... Ask and you shall  receive... Blah blah blah  so here I was at a loss of words and finally  when I decided to break  the silence  I asked my husband,  honey  did you  hear that,? I took  a deep  breath, pulled myself together and made peace  with it before  we left  the room and actually  praised Father  for the gift of the womb is a gift from  God and we are only  custodians. Here we are five months  down the road,  Myles is the most amazing  thing  that ever  happened  to us... His smile  is contagious, he screams and only joy fills the place,  he is very calm and peaceful and we adore  him... He is our everyday  day crush if you  know  what I mean... He is radiant and fascinating, we enjoy  his company  at home and never get enough  of him,  did I mention  that he is very  very handsome( wink! Wink!)  I don't  even  know  what it feels like to be a mother  of a girl  but I am in love with being  a mother  to this boy, Myles never cries, I here people  say babies cry and I have no idea  what that means, not that he never cries but he is not a cry baby it feels so much  easier  nursing  a boy and am grateful  to God that he gives us what we need  not necessarily  what we want,  I bless the Lord for  his ways are not our ways and he really  knows  what's best for  us at all times.
Just to encourage  us that it's not what we desire  badly  that really  brings happiness  into our lives, sometimes  it's the difference  that makes  us happier... Am happy  with a baby boy and as long as God has given  you what he knows  is best... You life will change and you will be happier than how you thought you  would  be with what you desired.  The blessing  of God maketh rich and he adds no sorrow to it.  It may not be a baby as it was the case for  me,  it may be a job or something  else.  The Lord is in control,  allow him do what he does  best which he does as Father